stars_*

perseverance.

2005-11-13T00:08:00.000-08:00

heyys. its a hot sunday afternn here.. had a great week. ate tons of great food =P baked lots of nice stuff too heh. and bought qt alot of thgs too. sigh dunno what to say, just tht this morning i felt a great sense of motivation to just stick to what ive been called to do, and so i just msged some close frens and asked them for their encouragement and support should i stumble. =) their replies were encouraging. yepp. thanks guys =) sigh. i dunno what izzit about me lah. im lik this super stubborn block tht refuses to give up until im sure there is really no other way out or that ive tried so hard ive grown weary of it. but nope, im certain i havent tried. at least not hard enough..and im determined to try even harder. ive not had enough of trying. i want more. at least more..until ive succeeded in doing whatever im supposed to do. whatever it is, im not giving up.

uhhuhs if you dunno what im talkin about its fine. yeahh. its kinda a boringg afternoon. not much ppl online..and ok, frankly, i was qt hurt when i realised he changed the password without telling me. but ahh what the heck. i cant call or msg him to ask him why can i? guess i just have to live w it. the longer the time, the less of a deal it seems. yeahh. no big deal. cant get stumbled over one irritating password. uhhuhs.

sigh. i shld cheer up...the future is bright. God's on my side (= nthg can bring me dwn. its the hols. my fav hols of the year. should make this period of waiting worthwhile. not one that includes me rotting away and languishing in self pity. yeah seriously i shld go get a life. like..start to grow up. im not that kinda young a kid anymore. its time i start taking thgs in my own stride and just live my life the way im called to live. without complaining too. should make the most out of this period of time. its not everyday u get to wait for someone you love and then know that on e other end, the feelings are mutual too. gotta draw close to God. (i realise ive repeated this for the umpteenth time -howeveruspellit-) really draw close. theres not a greater time as this to get close to God and know Him more. yeah shucks. its not as if He will forsake me of anythg..mann what was i thinkin..ohshucks i was such a nutthead.

-yeah. perseverance-

" the time of trial will be up b4 u know it..=) God will be faithful..so don worry yah.. =) "

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2Cor12:9-10

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. -2Thess5:16-18

You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. -Hebrews10:36

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. -Romans5:1-5

you know Him?

2005-11-06T06:06:00.000-08:00

Crucified

laid behind a stone

You lived to die

rejected and alone

like a rose

trampled on the ground

You took the fall

and thought of me

above all.

You know Him- Jesus? He was the one who did all that. you'd love him if you know him. He rocks my life (= tell me if you wanna know him okay? i'll help you.

+ oh why, did he do such a thg

for dirty sinners like you and me +

loving.

2005-11-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

and as i wait

i'll rise up like e eagle

and i will soar with you

your spirit leads me on

by the power of Your love.

God kinda spoke to me during worship today..as we were singing the song "Power of Your love" during service..yep see the words in red above? He kinda made me look at the song lyrics in a different perspective..

"and as i wait" is as if its referring to my wait for this one year.. in other words, God is lik trying to encourage me that even as i wait for this one year to be over, i shld continue to draw closer to God and soar with him and go wherever His spirit leads me, and that this one year can be accomplished by the power of His love. i've nv looked at the lyrics in this perspective, but it makes perfect sense to me now too. qt glad =) im sure tt was God who spoke to me, cuz i was kinda lacking in faith that i can withstand a period as long as one year, but today, God convicted me that with His love, it is possible =D yayys.

ytd went to KAP w fawn and he came over n lunched w us and stayed for qt awhile =) was enjoying myself alot. heh. its weirdd huh. how u can just look at someone and then feel lik smiling for no particular reason..alright =X ermms. after tt xieai woke up at lik 12plus i think, and fawn's medical appointment got cancelled, so in e end the three of us decided to go to town =D like finally. heh. but fawn had to go home n change first cuz shes gg to nj concert after going to twn w us, so i went w her to her house. isaac was home and ohmygosh tht lil kid is sooo cute =P heh. yup, after she changed, we left for town and met xieai. xieai was jealous tht she wasnt at KAP earlier =P and tht she didnt get to see isaac hahas. went shopping..took neos. then fawn n i wanted to buy e racerback xieai got, but we went arnd e entire (well, almost) orchard road and cant find a baleno store aniwhere, and fawn had to go, so xieai and i said we'd buy e racerback for her. then xieai and i went to imm to get it and SHUCKS. they only had one size S for black so in e end we didnt buy it =( guess we'll buy it next week. ohwells. but anw, had great fun ytd =) enjoyed my day lik crazy. thanks guys! (=

then went home and sorted thru my childhood fotos and sorted out qt alot of pics for him..then wrote him a letter to encourage him for the final exams and i gave them to him today..landy and shumay came to church today too! ivin didnt come to church today..miss her =P

hey. hope you like e photos =D missing you tons.

+ i live for You alone +

missingverybadly + healing.

2005-10-31T04:50:00.000-08:00

uhhs. i m feeling so utterly -sheesh- i feel lik bashing out at e comp in front of me. its retardeddd. its driving me crazy. nuttts. im going nutts nutts nutts. hahs. sheeeeeeEsh. i miss him ohmygosh. its so bad i feel lik banging my head against e computer screen. hahas. ohnoo. bleahh. i gotta be strong! >.< finee ="D">

-determined. >.<

+ God is the strength of my heart +

missingmissing + healing.

2005-10-30T21:47:00.000-08:00

yayys. im in e sch media resource library typing my blog. spposed to be doing pw nw. ermm ok im doing pw now. hahs. sch has officially ended but we have op dry run on wed so yeahhs. feeling qt happy nw. hehs i did my quiet time this morning! =) read another chapter frm his book oso. heh im gonna read one chapter per day..
im feeling kinda boreddd nw. lik boredbored. you know, really bored. think im gnna continue w my cross-stitch later. my relatives are coming to my hse tmr. gonna put up my christmas tree next week! kinda early huhs. nvm lah its fun. and nice (= sigh my frens said e clao paper was tough. i dunno. ohwells. think they will be fine anyhow.
sigh. was kinda sad ytd =( cuz i received some sms saying Pastor Ferdie Flores, a missionary in east timor will be executed today by beating. =( its sad. this world is such a fallen world it sucks. i dn get whats their problem lah. sigh. been praying for that guy..dunno him but my fren found out hes from Bible Baptist Church or sthg. hope he'd be okay, and God will make a miracle somehow. afterall, hes a guy with a heart tts all out to serve God i suppose..God will protect him (= "blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me, for great are your rewards in heaven, for in the same way, they persecuted the prophets who were before you." (ermm i dunno e scripture verse cuz e bible's nt w me, but u get my point yeahh.) sighh. wht is world becoming mann.

aye you, study hard. do me proud. =D

+ oh God let us be, a generation that seeks

that seeks Your face, oh God of Jacob +

missing + healing.

2005-10-30T03:27:00.000-08:00

heyys, had piano lessons earlier in e morning..hahas..had a new student today. shes 27!! hehs. then i was feeling kinda ermms. paiseh. =X arhhs. nvm larhs. hahs. aniwae, after lessons, i had lunch, then went to holland v coffeebean to do my quiet time =D was fun k..tho i was alone n stuff, can sense God's presence and stuff. heh i lurf holland v coffee bean =) the place's so cosy and fuzzy and nicee =D
yepps. read e book he gave me ytd. its a good bk! heh. thanks! =D yayy ill read it everyday.. hahas. left e place at arnd five..and went home. yupps. kinda miss him. cuz we've been to tt place lik qt a few times to mug. then lik today hes not there. uhhs. but, its okay i guess (= God's with me. yayys. so yup, im still healing with God's lurf..and im fine =D cheers.
talked to an old fren on e fone ytd nite..hahas kinda got some prompting frm God to call, so i did..then we caught up w each other on our lives n stuff. (e last time i talked to him was lik during church camp) yups then we prayed for each other. hahas. also found out that we once had crushes on each other. =X blahhs. but it doesnt really matter now larh. else he's gonna kill me. hahas =P ah nahh dn worry im loyal k =D hmms. missing you. may God bless you =)

+ i am empty but i know

Your love does not run dry +

never again.

2005-10-28T20:59:00.001-07:00

Never again will I confess "I can't", for "I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me." -Philippians 4:13

Never again will I confess lack, for "my God shall supply all of my needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." -Philippians 4:19

Never again will I confess fear, for "God hath not given me the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." -2Timothy 1:7

Never again will I confess doubt and lack of faith, for "God hath given to every man the measure of faith." -Romans 12:3

Never again will I confess weakness, for "The Lord is the strength of my life." -Psalm 27:1

Never again will I confess defeat, for "God always causeth me to triumph in Christ Jesus." -2Corinthians 2:14

Never again will I confess lack of wisdom, for "Christ Jesus is made unto me wisdom from God." -1Corinthians 1:30

Never again will I confess worries and frustrations, for I am "casting all my cares upon Him who careth for me." -1Peter 5:7

Never again will I confess condemnation, for "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus." -Romans 8:1

healing.

2005-10-28T19:51:00.000-07:00

heyys..havent been blogging for quite some time i guess..life's been pretty okay these days..i got promoted to J2!!! =) qt glad cuz being promoted in itself is a miracle. esp when i didnt exactly mug very hard for my promos. thank God! whew. gotta work harder nw that im blessed w the chance to get to J2. hmms. as the year's drawing to a close soon im feeling uhh. kinda sad. fawn's gg aus next year and i dont want her to go!!! ahh well. cant do anythg abt it i suppose..just pray that God will be w her and that she'll grow in e lord yepps. =D
ytd was the last day of sch for this year..its kinda fast..e way time flies..and lookin back i realise this year's been qt a headache. maybe its because i took a really long time to get accustomed to the stupid jc system, or even the pw crap i hafta go thru, or maybe the amount of stress tht accumulates from lack of sleep and everythg just screwing up all the time..but lookin back, however i dealt with this past year was not exactly the best way to deal w them either. obviously there were thgs i was pretty happy about, lik the breakthrough i had in april, cmw, getting into sfc, church camp etc, but there were many screwup times too, which i cld have prevented. i guess its kinda pointless to regret them now, so i guess i shld just ermm..start anew again and not commit those mistakes which i can avoid. yeahhs.
i really need a new start all over again. this crappy life of mine has been draggin on for way too long. its lik draggin me dwn and pulling me apart and its tiring me lik nthg else. crap i dunno where my logic and common sense went. i dn understand why i cldnt accept thgs e way they were, when nw looking back, i find those thgs pretty logical to understand. its God's plan tht thgs turn out the way they are..no matter how u struggle, its pointless. thgs are meant to turn out that way. if a relationship doesnt work the way others does, so be it. right? why did i have to mull over it and say its unfair, when actually God is working through it to make it into sthg i will not regret in the future. shucks. so dumb of me. ahh nvm at least i realise this nw. better now than later. its never too late to change. =)
yeahh. i guess they do have a point. if you love someone, u'd want God's best for that person, you wouldnt want tht person to stumble, much less drift further away from God. Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. shucks it takes alot to realise the true meaning of love.
lols if you dn understand anythg above its ok. u dn have to anyway. i was just thinking, or rather typing aloud. whew i feel much better now. i need God's healing hand upon me. im still suffering frm wounds caused by my own stubborn-ess, my own defiance, but im sure God heals =D yayy. ok really, if you dont understand whats going on, relax. its understandable if you dont, cuz im a pretty random person, and i just fly from one topic to another at an amazingly quick rate. just know this ok? im fine =) im alright. so dont worry. and i will continue to be fine..yeps. with God around, i will be (=

+im falling on my knees

offering all of me

Jesus, You're all this heart is living for+

YOU MUST READ THIS.

2005-09-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

hmms. heys. skipped breakfast, lunch and dinner todae. hahs. went to sch early this morning to pain e banner. a christian shop happened to set up a stall at our sch cafe cuz theres a seminar in sch about science and e bible..so fawn n me happened to see tons of nice cards and stuff..and heh we bought them..and i bought a waterbottle too =D cant use nets so i borrowed money frm fawn first. thks fawnn. (=

after painting e banner, we all got a watermelon treat frm joel.heh. then i left for qnstwn library to mug. stayed there for lik 5hours plus. was mugging lik crazy. got qt alot of stuff done =D heh. yayys. was actually feeling qt sad and bitter halfway thru mugging..lik when the numbing effect starts fading off, and everythg sets in again..found myself staring at my notes, trying to fight back the tears in my eyes. kp finding myself on e verge of tears..was trying to fight back e tears for lik 1hour plus. it was horrible..cuz in e end, it was all in vain and e tears just start trickling dwn anyway. its ok cuz i dun think anyone noticed.

anyhow, after tht went to church to meet ivin to go for service. was feeling lik really sad by then. was trying to act fine and happy and all but i guess ivin saw thru it =X heh. gd fren eh =P yups. yayyy marg and yaofeng came to church todae againnn! finally saw ian in church. heh. yup but anyhow, nthg really cheered me up larhs. i wasnt even exactly singing during worship. i dunno what i was doing. i just felt lik my heart was not there, though it yearns to be there. all i know was that i was staring into space, asking God WHY WHY WHY on earth is this happening to me. why give me love and take it awae. why separate us lik that. WHY. why make me suffer when it wasnt even part of my wrongdoing. and the tears just keep trickling dwn. i wanted with all my heart to praise Him and worship him and be filled with his joy. but i simply cant..with all e bitterness inside of me. so i wasnt exactly singing..sermon was good i suppose..but i wasnt exactly listening either. i didnt even bring my notebook.i was just staring into space and tearing even more. thinkin and thinkin. why why WHY. e mere thot of 362 days cld kill. i felt God urging me to go to the reservoir later after service. i dunt know why. i just felt it. i asked him why. but that was all He said.

after service i wasnt intending to go for dinner either. just had no appetite. but ivin forced me to go ntuc to get buns. she said i'd faint if i dun eat =\ okayyys. so went home after tht..on e bus, was thinkin if it was really God telling me to go to the reservoir..like its kinda scary going there alone at nite esp when im a girl and stuff and its lik 9plus already..but i distinctively heard God saying, "Go. I'll protect you." and since since i was basically tearing on e entire bus journey, fighting back the tears, i thot the reservoir's a gd place to cry. so i went.

went to the reservoir, got a seat and sat dwn. the moment i sat dwn i just burst into tears. i just cldnt stop crying. the tears just kept flowing and flowing. i just cried lik no one else's business. there were pple there larh for course. but not much. and i cant be bothered if they know im crying anyway. i was so broken. so torn. so shattered, so ripped apart i cld feel my heart bleeding. so i stayed there for one hour, crying so hard cuz i miss him so badly and yet theres nthg i can do to get to him. its as if im a criminal just because i love him. its as if i ought to feel guilty for loving him. so i stayed there, wrestling with God. demanding a reason for everythg. why i haf to endure all these pain. why e need for such training just so i cld lean on Him and trust in Him. actually i was half thinkin maybe God told me to go to the reservoir cuz He told him to go there too so we might meet or sthg. and i was half hoping i'd see him. but i stayed there for one frigging hour and i kinda gave up hope on that idea. so in e end i was lik thinkin maybe the whole thg was just a fluke. lik maybe God didnt talk to me after all. or even if He did, i dont see anythg special about the reservoir tonite anyhow. so i kinda just prayed resignedly that the both of us will sustain thru this tough time and still emerge together at e end of it all, that God's strength will be w us always. was about to get up and go, but two guys were walkin past and i didnt want them to see the tears in my eyes so i waited for them to walk past. and then. suddenly. i saw it. a shooting star. blue shooting star. shooting across the skie.

when i saw it i was lik WOW this is God moving man! one of the two guys saw it..and he was trying to tell his fren what he saw, but his fren didnt see it, and his fren was denying it, saying hes cock-eyed and stuff. but there was an indian labourer nearby who saw it too. and the guy brought his fren to confirm w the indian labourer that yes, indeed, what they saw was a shooting star. the first thg that hit me when i saw it, was that God was telling me that miracles do happen. suddenly, that glimmer of hope in me was just so strong i just burst into tears again. this time its tears of joy. i suddenly felt God's love so near me. its lik even in my sorrow, He comforts me. i mean, thats a shooting star. no human cld haf shot it. it HAS to be God. even when i wasnt exactly worshipping Him just now, He bore no grudges against me. HE loves me. totally. completely. even when im with so many imperfections. this kinda love.. is super awesome. its undescribable. its just so out-of-e-world. its...crazy. =') nutts. God rocks so much. and i was asking Him if there are more stars to come. the guy was still trying to convince his fren tht there WAS indeed a shooting star and they even sat at a nearby bench to wait and see. as i was about to go before i saw the shooting star, i was asking God if there was more to come. seeing the boys waiting, i wanted to wait too. but you know what? God told me to go. He said, "its not use waiting. i made that shooting star just for you." i was so stunned. i mean at that instant it just dawned on me how right the timing and everythg was. how coincidental everythg was that i saw the shooting star that it cant be just pure coincidence. it was just like a split second. i cld haf missed it. but God made me see it. He asked me to the reservoir for a reason. He showed me the way. the only way is to lean on Him and trust in Him. that He will always provide for me. that in times of need, He'll be my light. He'll create miracles. all i have to do, is to believe in Him. Most imptly, what struck me later on while i was on e way home, was that besides signifying that He creates miracles, the shooting star meant a wish is fulfilled. Its kinda like God telling me that my prayer will be fulfilled. heard of the line, falling stars are the greatest of all, because each time a star falls, a wish is fulfilled? well i did. and God made me feel that way. that i dont hafta worry about the both of us. that He will make a way. for US =D

God is awesome. i love Him. i love Him for creating the most beautiful thgs on earth. i love Him, especially, for always making thgs happen at the exact right timing and making sure there is no ultimate way for us to deny its Him thats working in our midst. i love Him, especially for loving me when im so imperfect, that when theres no shoulder for me to lean on, no one to cry to, Hes there. and whats best, is that He shows it.
thank you God for the shooting star (=

=X

2005-09-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

sigh. life's painful sometimes. stuffs just come and go. life's cruel. hurting. even numbing.
or sometimes its just me. or rather i alwaes feel lik my lifes so awfully unfair. (which is not all e time true, since i believe there must be many out there w much worse circumstances than mine) but that doesnt mean mine's entirely fair either.
school's now more of a chore than a joy. exams are stressing me lik crazy. but books are my refuge. where i just bury myself in and forget (or try to forget) everythg. in other words, numb myself. God is my refuge too. the difference between the two is that with God comes joy, peace and strengthening of faith. i wish i cld spend more time with God. really. but the crazy exam timetable proved otherwise. or maybe its just me. the way i manage my time. time management problems? uhhhh. not again.
i dunno whie im typing like this.. or what m i even typing in the first place. all i know is im feeling numb. so very very very numb. like i dont understand why my life's lik this, tho im trying so hard to figure it all out. i dont understand why i have to carry the responsibilities of someone way beyond my age, why i have to handle relationships the way few people my age have to, and..why why WHY do i have to shoulder the pain of someone else's mistake. i guess im still feeling bitter about the whole thg. im trying hard not to. i know the problem is not entirely hers and stuff but yeahh. im trying okay? im trying to be rational and stuff. give me time. this is too absurd for the human mind to understand.
sigh. im so tired. i feel so exhausted...lik at the end of everyday, i just sit back, and watch my life crumbling into pieces in front of me.
i miss you. you know its you im missing. just in case u forgot or lost hope or somehow. well i do. i miss you. crazily. its kinda driving me mad. i try so hard not to think about it i end up thinkin about it even more. hahhhs. sighh. im kinda lost for words now. its painful when two hearts which are meant to be together are forcefully wrenched apart against your will, and ure in no position whatsoever to prevent it. you can only stare at the shattered pieces of your heart, praying with all your might, that somehow, someday, the broken pieces will be able to find back what they have once lost.
shucks. i miss you. that much.

missing.

2005-09-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

so desperately trying to bury myself in my books.
trying so hard to numb myself.
so i cld forget the pain of missing you.
-pained.

unexplained.

2005-05-09T06:43:00.000-07:00

a shock.

a mystery.

unexplained.

memories just keep flooding back.

too afraid to assume why thgs are the way they are.

too scarred to dream up a future.

whatever it is, im leaving it to God.

God, its in ur hands yeahhs? (=

lil' munchkin =D

2005-04-29T19:15:00.000-07:00

im going crazy.
havent been blogging for ages, and e reason's obviously because im either too tired to by the time i reach home, or im too busy to switch on e com anyhow. its scaryy. my msn aint working. so i guess i probably dont see the point of using the com as much as before. i can like use it for 30mins per fortnight kinda thg. lols i guess after getting addicted to the com for so long, it just doesnt work anymore.
tons haf happened since i last blogged-obviously. life concert, sajc sports daee, ermm and i dont know what else but yeahh. tons. and u know sthg? 05s73 rockks (= lurff e class. the ppl there rock like madd. they're really nice and stuff and funny and lame and yeahhs, just e way i like it =D they are a bunch of caring pple. ^^ really happy to be in that class. ThankyouGod =D
well, life concert was like a million weeks ago, but yeahh was really happy bout it cuz u know..qt alot of ppl turned to Christ and stuff, and zhuqi's performance and e rest of e sfc members..they were great =D except for some unruly ppl who ermms well kinda tried to spoil e performance but yeahhs. ^^ they still rock anyhow. qt moved by darren's actions during life concert too. its really admirable the way he places God above anythg else huhs (=
as for sports day, it was just yesterdae. my class didnt win anythg larh but im feeling sososo happy cuz as i said, 05s73 rockkks. its lik even if we're losing we still nv ever did stop cheering kinda thg =D we were so enthu lahhs. its lik the whole house,we were almost lik e onli ones cheering nonstop when the runners were running =D we were cheering for loyfatt and yeahhs s73!!! lols so cool..we cheer for our class until they overtook from last to 4th or 5th. mannn s73 is greattttt =D and yepp ian's class got 3rdddd!!!!woohoo. and cool right,it was his bdae yesterdae =P..i think darren's class got 2nd or sthg..72 got ermms 2nd i think, or third..they were damn good larhs =D so happy for them..loyfatt did welll woohoooooo~
sighh.supposed to do research on some gp stuff now. and i cant find anythg on e internet =X grrrr.schools fun, but its FREAKING busy. i can hardly cope with it.sheeshh.its ok, i guess God will make a way somehow. (=

and running.

2005-04-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

...ure still running thru my mind...

running.

2005-04-10T05:03:00.000-07:00

i dont understand whiee.

u've been running thru my mind all daee.

//.its driving me crazy. -

never will be good enuff for her -

2005-04-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

heyys. before you get any misconception from my title, dun worry. im straight yeahhs. lols just that im listening to obviously nw and yeahhs. tt line's my favourite line. and fawn's too. hehs =P oh and btw. sajc still rockks. lols =D the orientation finale rockked big timee =) lols.

tmr's monday. gotta wear full sa sch u to school. hehs i'll end up lookin weirddd. and i believe everyone else's gonna look weird too. lols. so weirddd =X hehs but i suppose its qt an exciting affair hehs.

when i used e com just now, the tv was tuned to channel 8 uhhuhs. and the show ' i not stupid ' was on tv. hehs. its funny how the actors suddenly look like such small lil kids.. hehs felt kinda nostalgic. the good old sec 2 years.. aww =P time really flies.

im typing in short sentences now cuz my thots are rather fragmented yeahhs. went out w didi in e morning ytd and mugged with him. yes i mugged. which means i did my own work while he did his. lols. surprising huhs. first dae of school and im mugging alr. ahhs heck i cant do AP GP. geez. after tt head off to church. ytd was e official launch of our church's youth service!! hooray =) church rockkks. lurf e place lik mad. had cell before service. cell was some bible study session. it was qt fun yeahhs. interesting when u get to learn thgs about the well..supernatural =P bcuz it was e official launch of the youth service, the preaching was sthg about us being living stones. the foundation of a building and stuff lik that. cool stuff really. as i said, church rockks.

sad to say, had some conflict w didi last nite. dunno whats happening, but i guess he's pang-sehing me cuz he likes some girl and yeahhwell..u get the picture..?? if you dont, its ok cuz i dun wanna talk about it. till e next time i use e com...tata =)

moving on with life

2005-03-31T21:32:00.000-08:00

heyos..havent been bloggin for a friggin long timee...sorry =X urmms im sitting in the sch library with fawnn, rong, xie ai etc and as usual..im so crappingly cold. well havent been blogging for a really long time but well im kinda lazy to update everythg tht has happened so far..so yeahhs. i guess i'll just type randomly. random. hehs. im good at that =D

all i really know..is that..mann i miss the ARTS fac..silarious, 05A31 and all ALOT. seriously..silarious has lik e best cheers of all and it kinda sucks now tt i wanna take sci and im stuck in some dumb illipia house whose cheers are those u hear like everywheree~ but sad huhs. i haf no choice i guess. i cant take arts subbies aniwae..so yeahhs..

2days of induction programme left me w an awful muscle ache. we had some stupid pt of a few million 8 counts of 4 of jumping jacks and lik a few hundred more burpees however e heck u spell it. (its interesting how appearances can be deceiving =P burpees look lik sucha cute wordd =P lols ohwell) and ha. we got into push up positions for lik more than a few million times so basically by the end of day1 i was aching lik some rotten vege. by the end of day two, after all e obstacles and crap i was almost a goner. on day 2, every og has to make some kinda vehicle outta 8 bamboo poles and some rafia string but its frigging boringgg for me cuz its not OG5 and crap i miss those ppl lik crazy. its so farnie cuz me n fawn are lik in diff ogs and we were lik standing in e middle of the hall crossing our arms and lookin at each other. lols. so farnie. in e end we went to find all e arts fac pple and yeahhs =) crapp i miss those ppl like CRAZY.

after induction was orientation. i cld sae the orientation was fun all in all. heLLO this is SA how can it not be fun? =) alot of 1st intakers came crashing in..and yeahhs basically by e end of finale last nite everyone's crying cuz they gonna miss each other so badly and such yadayadayada. im posted to 05S73 yepps and crapp i dunno anyone in that class except for haojun. lols. jo's posted to s74 so we can still crap during morning assembly everydae =D hahas but nonetheless, ALL the girls in my class are lik complainin that there are onli 10 girls in the class. i mean YEAH i felt lik shit when i initially found out that there are 10 girls onlie in my class but HELLO move on w life yeahhs? complain once, complain twice, nvm. dont complain lik everyday cuz it really drives me mad. live with it. its not lik those ppl gonna eat u up aniwae. and even if they were going to, i'd be the one being eaten up first aniwae, since u girls are alwaes sticking on n crying with ur old classmates anywayyyy~ whateverrr ok. seriously. but on another note, the girls in my class are all very nice ppl larh. save for the fact that they probably dunt know how to move on..just as yet. and okay. patience i guess. not exactly my cup of tea but. yeah i gotta try. my class is nice larh. all in all SAJC rockks. okays. in a few mins time i gtg for maths makeup lesson. i better OPEN my ears cuz i was happily ponning all my lessons in e first intake hehehs. siannn lah. dunno my class. and they are alwaes scattered everywhere. bleahhs. but the pple are nice. ohwells..i guess it takes time then.. =X

had my first physics lec today. mygoshh it was 2 longgg hours i kinda dozed off. blarghs. gonna collet chem notes later and gonna go get my uniforms w rong laterrs..hmmms. gotta wear uniforms on monday. haha gonna be an exciting affair =P lols. okay i guess. till then.. tata~

we were the reason =)

2005-03-25T05:20:00.000-08:00

we were the reason that He gave his life

we were the reason that He suffered and died

to a world that was lost, He gave all he cld give

to show us the reason to live

// He is my reason to live (=

here i am to worship

2005-03-25T05:04:00.000-08:00

Light of the world,
you stepped down into darkness
opened my eyes, let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
hope of a life spent with you

Here i am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that youre my God =)
ure altogether lovely
altogether worthy
altogether wonderful to mee

King of all days
oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
humbly u came to the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor

Here i am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that youre my God (=
ure altogether lurfliee
altogether worthy
altogether wonderful to mee

I'll nv know, how much it cost
to see my sin, upon that cross
I'll nv know, hw much it cost
to see my sin, upon that cross
I'll nv know, how much it cost
to see my sin, upon that cross...

Here i am to worship
Here i am to bow down
Here i am to say that, ure my God (=
ure altogether lovely
altogether worthy
altogether wonderful to mee ~
// i lurf you God (= mwakks.

pinkkk!!_

2005-03-25T02:18:00.000-08:00

lols heyos. havent been blogging for qt some time.~ as usual =P newaes..hmms this week's been pretty gd as compared to the previous weeks. the depression kinda faded awae so life's kinda good for now =) cheerios~ hmms.postin was out on tues so yeahhs hallelujah! i got into sa science. =) muahahhas. damn happiee. after tt went to esplanade w jo to check out e composers and stuffs. yepps. took ALOT of books for reference and some paranoid librarian had to ask us if we were actually using their books twice. weird huhs. guess they dont allow self-study and all. aniwaes, jo was still getting really sadd ovr e fact tht her dad wants her to appeal in nj. weird parents but arh. was trying to cheer her up anihow. got qt sick of researching on e composers after a while so we went over to suntec for lunchiee. then went shopping at suntec. after tt went home cuz it was kinda late alr. yepps. tt dae was kinda fun larhs. lols =)

wed was e first time we get to see the 2nd intake pupils. im in og 25. fawnn's in og 24 and adeline and claire are in og 26. lols im in e same og as xiutian! =D hehs. haf qt alot of intimidating-looking ppl in my og. they are all tall and big-sized n such. scaryy..i dont really know them yet. so i shall not jump to any conclusions as yet. but hell. they dont look too happie getting into sa anihow. i mean sheesh who else can they blame but themselves for not being smart enuff to get into the top5 seriously. but shrugs. maybe they aint tt bad afterall. i'll be able to tell by e end of next week anihow.ha. they dunno how much they're gonna miss if they dun get into sa seriously. sa rockks. its fun lik CRAZY. and i've frens who are straight 6pters who went hwachong for one day. and they're appealing back to sa. and others who appealed to aj, only to appeal back to sa. heyys. i think they jus dunno what they're missing. im not saying hc or aj sucks or what. i think they're pretty gd schs and such but. yeahhs dont judge a sch just purely by its academic grades yeahhs. so yepps. lols alot of ppl say the guys in e 2nd intake cannot make it lols but wells. urmms. okays. i shall say nthg =D but the 51guy is GONE. lols crappp. bet he got into top5 or sthg. heh. nehh its okay. i believe theres some guy who stands out from the rest of e crowd. hahs. =P went to twn w jo and her band frens. wanted to go swensons for icecream ..the 3bucks offer thgie. ive eaten tht for lik godknowshwmanydaes this march =P lols newaes, we were waiting for 3pm cuz tt thgie onli starts at 3..so we went heeren to shop. ha joel shops! weird huhs. he was tellin us how he feels tht some ulu-looking earrings are nice and he was psychoing us by telling us he'd by it for us if we will wear it to sch the next day. lols weirdd. lols then we passed by some gay shop and we went in and uhhuhs. lols felt qt freaked out. =P after tt it was abt 3 so we went ovr to swensons at orchard. it so turned out after we've drank ALOT of water and looked thru the menu then did we realise that that particular outlet doesnt haf that offer. so we were trying to erms. think of ways to sneak out of swensons. lols .. like leaving swensons one by one or sthg. but in the end we felt kinda bad drinking their water and not ordering anithg so the 7 of us just ordered one fries. lols u shld haf seen the waiter's face when we ordered that man. lols and we all felt so embarrassed =P newaes, got over to ps swensons' after tht and yayy finally got our icecream. heh i ordered the firehouse. and everyone was surrendering their cherries to jo =P and she'd say "it's sweet" after eating each cherry. okays. tt's an inside joke. yepps. spent a longgg time at swensons talkin cock lols then after tt joel wantd to go carrefour. so we went there..and then after awhile we went home. yeahhs.

thu was boringg in sch cuz it was all e diff subject introductory lectures. econs lect was interesting and funnie..yepps. ponned phy lect cuz i wanted to leave sch early =X hehs went queenswae w james kor cuz i wanted to photocopy some stuffs. den we went to anchorpt delifrance. he was complaining lik shit to jo tht he was so freaaking bored =( boo. hahas. aniwaes, after tt he sent me to the bus stop then i met jo and samuel at harborfrnt ctrl, and samuel kor took us to jack's place n treated us to the students' meal there =) arghhs. dunno what izzit w me, but i seem to frequent restaurants alot ever since i got into jc. shrugs*

today's gd friday. went to church early in e morning and hah saw jonathan. mygod havent seen him for a longg time. last time i saw him was lik nov last year or sthg. he was lik gng on about how he's gonna get three times my l1r5 for his Os and such yada yada yada. idiotic huhss =P the service was pretty good i think. lots of gd effort was put into it. i kinda cried =X in church cuz yeahhs was touched by the service..the way they presented it and all. sighh~ Jesus wld haf died on e cross, even if it was just one person he was dying for. bleahhs. felt quite guilty of all my sins- the hatred, anger, loneliness, and unforgiveness i've felt thruout this yearr. felt qt determined to change for the better, to be more lik Christ after the service =')

after svc,went to meet jo for her to pass me the stuffs i forgot to take home ytd. then went dwn to twn to meet didi for lunch. hehs. weird laughing syndrome again. cldnt stop laughing =P had lunch at long john. wanted to eat at pastamania but i had no cash =X lols. after tt went to popular to buy some stationary. hehs ermms. yeahhs =P then went to heeren for awhile before gg over to ps swensons. for icecream. again. =P this is lik my fourth consecutive time eating icecream. =X hehs. were fooling arnd at swensons hahs. he was forcing me to close my eyes and eat the icecream but i refused to cuz my gut feeling tells me i'd end up putting icecream into my nose instead of my mouth or sthg =X hehs. was trying to do sthg to the wunnerful cherry stalk but heck its so tough. so i gave up =P lols. after tt walked to the bus stop then yeahhs. got home. was qt fun larhs =P hehhs.

err tts about all..im feeling crappingly hungry arghh. im gonna dig the kitchen for food for nowww =) tatas.

helpp.

2005-03-21T00:09:00.000-08:00

sigh. helppp_. arghs. life kinda suckks. its monday afternoon..ive just blogged earlier in e morning but arhh wth. im blogging again cuz im so freaaking bored its eating into me. or sthg like that =X. arghs. im feeling kinda depressed n stuff cuz ive got no one to go out with tho i left sch at like 12.45 todae..arghs. just a bad dae i suppose. samuel had to mug for his common tests and he asked me to meet him at woodlands library. i cld haf gone if i wanted to but wth. woodlands library? to do what? so i kinda gave up on tt idea. jo had class farewell party. she said she cld come find samuel n i when shes done but still.. nehhs. not e library. james went to play squash w joyce. ian has choir practice. xieai's gone out to watch spongebob w her sec sch mates =P and ermms fawnn's grounded. ahwells. bad day to go out i guess. sigh. so i was trudging outta sch to the bus stop at lik 1pm in e afternn waiting for the bus to go home. naturally mum was surprised i was home tht early. i wanted to go out in e first place for a reason. and thts cuz i dont like staying at home for long. tht place gives me this serious sense of depression. godknowswhie. okay maybe i know why. its lik no one understands me in that frigging place i call my house. and i thot perhaps my frens cld save me from this ordeal by giving me a chance to reach home at a later time .. or sthg. but heck tht wasnt the case cuz. everyone's busy. arghs. it aint their fault i know. im just fedup cuz i hate my house the way it is. there aint any lurf arnd.

this was more than evident the moment i stepped into my house. mum was nagging lik shit for godknowswhat reason already. i didnt do anythg wrong anyhow. so yeah get my point? life's shit at home. this place suckks. i DONT feel happy in this place. unless u count the time i sit in front of my tv watching lotr or sthg. =D that makes me happy. but how many times can u get to watch lotr in this frigging place aniway. arghs. hate this place.

mums throwing her tantrums arnd lik its no one else's business. i hate e wae she throws her weight arnd and expects everyone in the household to understand her when all she does is to nag all day long.

somehow i kinda feel miserable by the fact that ive realised how though they are my frens, they cant exactly save me all e time from this terrible fate of having to go home. hate this place. but . yeah friends cant be there all e time. can they? =(

[[ numb. ]]

2005-03-20T23:55:00.000-08:00

bleahhs.its a monday morningg.theres supposed to be sch today..i mean..yepps im in school but uhhs. we conveniently ponned all e lessons today (= first lesson's gp today and we kinda called up miss sab to tell her we aint going for class n such so..yeahhs =P got to blog at this weird hour of e day cuz fawnn n xieai wanted to blog so i kinda came along w them to the library. uhhuhs. went arnd on my blog-reading spree..realised james and ian had a blog too..hahs..my goshh kinda realised that ian's qt a depressing guy tho he looks relatively fine on e outside..weird huhs. read his blog n such n found out =X shucks i hope he aint complaining bout my smses at ungodly hours of e dae..shucks. feel lik apologising to him..feeling kinda bad bout it ..yeahs maybe i shld. its weird how ppl alwaes appear happy and alrite on e outside but are actually not feeling all-that-good in e inside.well i guess everyone feels that way at some pt or other so yeahhs.

lifes crapp larhs. im currently typing in a constipating-ly slow speed cuz im in e library and its f-r-e-e-z-i-n-g here. its lik freaaking cold n such uhhuhs. arghs. well i guess its not a bad idea staying in the library anihow..since we're more or less ponning lessons for e entire day.. posting's gonna be out tmr..im feeling really sad. it kinda hurts seeing the ppl who mean e world to you go..what sucks even more is knowing that where they're going is actually not where they wanna go n stuff =( u wish u cld do sthg to help them but. u just find urself feeling more n more helpless as the day of the posting draws closer.urhhs. i dun wan jos and fawnn and james to go.. =( they're lik great buddies to me. crapp. arghs. im not going into that again.

sure ive got plenty of great frens coming into sa as well but. im gonna realli miss those going awaee. urgh. i said i will not go into that so. yeahs. =X

tons of random thots are flying arnd my head now. ermms. well..the march hols were pretty ok i guess...had qt alot of fun and such. bbqing, shopping late into the nite..yeahs. but i guess i was feeling kinda dwn during the march hols..or even way b4 it. some minor form of depression i guess. not too serious since i still eat alot. just. i dunt know. there are just days when i sit at my table and just stone there for hours and at the end of it all, feel lik crying and such. i dont know whats going on. seems lik ..life just screws and nthg seems to be working fine and all.. my parents just dont seem to understand me but screwit i guess all parents are like that and well..tts not e main prblem aniwae. i just feel kinda. awful. i dunt know. i guess it all boils dwn to the fact that .. i dont know. its been mths and i just .. dont seem to take interest in liking anyone animore. or sthg like that i suppose. i guess ive gotten over him. i mean hell that was last year but i dont get whie i cant seem to like anyone anymore. its like everytime i thot theres this possibility of me liking someone, at e end of it all, i'd just realise tht ..hell no i dont like him. weird. nthg works out. suckks the way it is. i just wish i cld lurf again. feel again. like again or sthg. its weird how u tend to miss those daes ure in lurf..even when at e end of it all u realise hes a jerkk and such. i miss the feeling of lurf. i guess. not so much as missing the feeling of being loved, but rather, missing the feeling of loving someone else. the kinda way someone just runs thru ur head nonstop and all..the way u cant stop thinkin of someone..the way u pounce on e fone the moment it vibrates just hoping to see some msg sent by someone..its awful. i dont feel this way animore. im feeling kinda numb. and it suckks. its dragging me dwn. really dwn. and ...well i just feel really awful. i dont know what to do anymore. i guess i shall just leave life the way it is. i cant do anythg to make thgs better can i?

sigh. well shucks i thought i like him. i was wrong. guess i feel so hopeless i dont even wanna try animore. he wldnt haf liked me anyway. yeah so im not trying. hahs. back to square 1 again. its awful. this cycle. it nv stops. i dunt know who's gonna break it for me.

time flies?

2005-03-16T20:12:00.000-08:00

oh yeahhs hey there..feeling bored so decided to blog again. uhhs its been eons since i last blogged so yeahh, time to blog anihow. hmms tons haf happened since i last blogged. a plentiful no. of ppl in my class got 9s and 10s for Os yeahhs. some are staying, others are but moving to science =D and some are not. and SHITT. kor and jie are still forced to put nj and vj before sa. seriously, the parents nowadaes are one helluva control freaks. sheeeesh.
anihow, im trying hard not to dwell on e fact that those two VIPs of my life gonna leave sa =( yepps life goes on i guess. 2 sundays ago, went out w kor n jo for dinner at suntec lols after tht we met this weird man who complained that the sch nv teach jo how to stand properly cuz we were standing at some escalator and this man is apparently " in a hurry " and "wants to pass" or sthg. so we let him pass hahs this man did this "excuse me let me pass im in a hurry" thg to everyone else in front , and the ironic thg's that he doesnt seem to be walkin in an ultra fast speed either. so as a result the three of us decided to overtake him =D lols so retarded. the ppl standing in front of us on e escalator kinda heard our plan and they were lik chuckling as well or sthg. so yeahh we kinda overtook the guy lols and he was complaining that my sarcastic sorry wasnt sincere as if it takes a genius to figure that out. ok lols. damn hilarious larhs. and i laughed so much i was lik choking on the icecream kor treated us to earlier at swensons. lols ohmann.
then we were frigging late and jo was "gonna get screwed by her mum" =P so we decided to get a cab. then we realised the queue outside esplanade was qt long too so kor called for a cab. lols then in the cab there was this black cloth thgie at e rear and at first sight it seriously looked like some kinda underwear so err. we all thot it was underwear =D then we asked the taxi driver what it was, then the uncle said "ahha! so thts the cause of the bad smell in the car!" then we were giggling lik crazy uhhuhs. then he said it must be some turban cloth or sthg. lols then he made james dump it at some nearby dustbin hahas. then after tt we dropped off at my place, and we saw this abandoned dog whining at my house's void deck, so i went upstairs and got some water down and we gave it to the dog..then james brought the dog home for one night. his parents didnt allow him to kp the dog so the next dae, jo and i left sch early to meet james and bring the dog to spca. the dog is really SO CUTE omg. its some kinda labrador i guess. its only 3weeks old yeahhs so we seriously hope someone will adopt it, cuz if not, spca's gonna put it to sleep =( we called the dog blackie and took some pics w it. lols it didnt haf much toilet training and stuff so it was pooing all over james' place when it was at his house larhs =P we're kinda lookin for someone to adopt the dog larhs so yeahhs.
hmm after tt incident..then errr.i ponned sch for 3days in a row and ermms well went out w ian on e first dae and we watched hitch. lols not to mention tt kuku was laughing the loudest in the entire cinema and he was luffing in MY EAR. erhemms. yeahhs lols met kor after that then went to watch them practise for sat's worship at their church..the next dae, jo and i ponned sch. we were supposed to meet kor at harborfront for breakfast and he WAS LATE FOR ONE AND A HALF HOURS =P ..ate the kaya toast and then went to his house and made apple crumble lols. we wanted to make choc chip cookies too but we didnt haf enuff time yeahhs..
on the last day i ponned sch, jo n i went out w samuel and yeahhs i met up w him earlier cuz she still wants to go out w her classmates so yepps..he treated me to the tiramisu cake at bakers' inn (my god its heavenly stuff) and then we met up w jo..had dinner at delifrance and haagan dazs =D lols heavenly stuffs.
on saturday, i asked darryl to church but i dont really know him so i left him to ian for ian to entertain him..after service we took 51..he was kinda accompanying me cuz he gotta change to train at jurong east =X lols.
on monday, i met up w weihui and liane to watch in good company..ermms liane had some bible study thg earlier so ian and her cellgrp mates came along as well..the show wasnt exactly v good..hitch's better..but yeah some parts of the show are funny larhs. after that they left and liane n weihui n me walked to taka to get FOOD =D met justin weilun and soon hui and ermms we called weilun over to help us take photos =D and ermms get some info outta him as well lols.. after tt we went over to far east to do some shopping then we sent liane off and weihui and i continued shopping..then i suddenly decided that i was hungry =D so we stopped by some place that takes 20 minutes to fry some fries and 2 chicken wings (grrr) and ate there..after that we left for home (= it was a fun dae larhss..
tuesdae..went to town w mum for dinner and i bought a new pair of boardshorts ahha! =D lols was damn tired cuz i was hanging arnd town till lik 10plus 11 or sthg. yawnnnns.
wednesdaee..class bbq at james' house! yepps i reached his house earlier in e dae to bake choc chip cookies..jo was supposed to come along but she doesnt wanna pon band =( so yeahhs.. spent the morning at his house helping his sis to fluff the sheep for good fridae =P lols then we bored ourselves to death while waiting for lunch..ate lunch, then we started baking the cookies. =D it was qt fun yeahhs. but the first batch was ermm a lil chaota and james' bro (chris) and his fren was ermm commenting on the color of the underside of the cookie lols. the next few batches were great stuff and james' baked one extremely huge cookie ermm..for the fun of it =S after that jon and clement popped over to help w the preparation of e bbq..then they went to real mall to get fdstuffs for the bbq..they bought WEIRD stuffs lik FISH. urgh. okayys. lols anihow, after that we went off to play tennis..or rather i watched them play tennis..or i made a fool outta myself playing tennis =P lols. had a bad headache sometime during the bbq so i went upstairs to get panadol yepps..then by the time i got down again, they've got the fire started so we were busily bbqing stuffs already. the CHICKEN FILLLET's damn good larh ohnooo im hungry again.. =X michelle was pissed w owen cuz he took awae her crabsticks lols =X bbqed hotdogs were nice too =D but we had alot of chicken wings leftover =\ after that got my bag from upstairs and went to the bus stop w jc kavic and johan. i was psychoing them to take 176 w me cuz im afraid of the dark, not to mention that they were talkin about ghost stories earlier. lols in e end i succeeded! lols jc and kavic alighted at westmall then johan and i changed to bus 51 after tht. ahwells. i think he reached home at arnd 1am =X lols. he lives at hougang =\ hahas. shucKs i owe him a cadbury choc bar. lols
so thats about all so far..tmr going to some creative warehouse sale w ian and kor and i gotta treat them to haagan dazs or sthg. gotta tidy up my room today. bleahhs.. so long.. tata =)

miserable.

2005-03-01T06:51:00.000-08:00

haix . im feeling so sad . im sorry if i talk on e fone too much larrs but =( sighh nvm. im sorry. im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry. please dont be angry with him okayys? =( sighhh. boooO.

out.of.the.point

2005-03-01T04:36:00.000-08:00

heyys..blearghs. feeling qt miserable now cuz i just got news that josephine's parents are forcing her to go nj and james' dad's encouraging him to go nj too. BLEAHs. im so SAD larhs. its like they're my best 2 buddies arnd in this world =( im gonna be so sad without them arnd larrs =( i mean all thruout my sec 3 n sec 4 years..whenever im feeling down i'd go lookin for her =( now shes gone who can i go to =((((((( arghhs. im so sad. its lik so wrong to feel this way. i've got nine and im crying its RETARDED. arghs. and outta all people samuel has to make it worse by lying that josephine WANTS to go to nj lik WHAT the heck. i mean i can understand that he badly wants her in his grey school with grey toiletbowls (no offence) but hello he doesnt hafta go to the extent of LYING tht she WANTS to go to NJ cuz she has said so repeatedly that she doesnt =( ARGH. and he's blaming me for not sparing a thot for HER parents. "imagine how upset her parents will get if she doesnt get into nj" lik what the HECK who cares? why should SHE be the one fulfilling her parents' wants anyway. its already wrong of her parents to control where she should go. GRRRR. and he has to go thru the effort of checking from his band frens how she cld appeal into nj. ha. as if she wants to appeal. and WORST of all he still claims that he is obviously feeling so darn miserable cuz he obviously doesnt want josephine to be forced to go to nj yeah right. if he DOESNT want her to be forced to go to nj why does he hafta find out HOW she can appeal to nj. and he is WANTING her to go for the dumb audition tomorrow. yeahright. maybe i dont haf much right to be commenting on this. but i seriously cannot STAND the way he claims sthg and does another. its so fucking superficial its HILARIOUS. and i hate hate HATE the way he doesnt seem to care about her feelings. its like HELLO right now he is brooding over how MISERABLE her parents will feel if she doesnt go to nj instead of how much she actually doesnt wanna leave her frens in sa behind. and obviously he oughta FEEL for her parents..he IS in nj. OF CUZ he wants her in nj. whaddaheck. im so pissed. im fuming mad. i mean i'd sympathise w jo if she REALLY has to go nj and obviously i'd be damn sad, but him trying to help her parents in getting her into nj when she doesnt want to is another thg. its SO FREAKKING outta the point.damn i HATE him. i wish jo wld just forget him and move on with life. sheeeeeeesH.and this is not the first time hes behaving lik sucha total ______. GRRR.

thankyouGod =D

2005-03-01T04:26:00.000-08:00

heyyos..got back the Olvl results ytd. hehehs i got NINE yeahhhh!!! yayyyyyyy!! YAYYYY i got a nine nine nine nine nineeee =D lols praiseGod!!! for i dn think i'd have gotten such miraculous grades if not for Him =D for just a few mths back i was crying lik mad over my prelims yeahhs. God is great!! lols so excited hhahhs.. yeahh im staying on in sajc but im going to science..sajc rockks!! and its so cool cuz lik so many ppl are staying on in SA =P yayy we were lik screaming into the phone when all of us found out that we cld all stay in sa and im going to science and stuff. hahhas. yeaH! went to esplanade and city hall ytd w my mum. mum treated me to dinnerrr~ lols yeahhhs. i know of some ppl who've gotten 9 but are still qt sad.. uh wells i dunno what to say but for me, nine's really good according to my standard already larrs so.. yeahhs..sometimes its best to be contented with what you have. just leave everythg to God. He wld do wonders* just trust in Him =D

around e corner =X

2005-02-25T02:35:00.000-08:00

arglhalhglahglarkhglkhklhklashglkshadklfhskldhfl. the GCE Olvl results are coming out on 280205. next monday. everyone's freaking out. i wont say im exactly very nervous or tensed up or scared.. but yeahh i guess when the day finally arrives, i'd be REALLY nervous yeahhs. but for now.. im still qt sane =X im still in the "leave everythg to God" mode..which is qt good =\ gotta continue psychoing myself that whatever is done, cannot be undone, and no matter how much i worry now, it will be futile. yeahhs. gonna pray hard for everyone getting back their results too =D u guys will be in my prayers (= and its been great these first few mths at SAJC =D SAJC ROCKKSS (= 05A31- rock on ppl!!! im gonna miss ya all..and OG5...you guys RULE!!! sajc's like the best school i've ever been in larhhs (= pray i'll be able to go to sa science. =D but for now...

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6-7

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." - 1Peter 5:7

see? Jesus rockks (=

happiee valentine's daee =D

2005-02-14T05:14:00.000-08:00

"Happeeee Valentine's Day to you!!"
//* just like tht. and u brighten up my entire daee (=

im all about you (=

2005-02-13T06:05:00.000-08:00

theres sthg that ive gotta say
ure alwaes with me even though ure far awae
talking to you on my cell
just the sound of ur voice
maeks my heart melt
oh girl, well its true

[chorus]
Im all about you
im all about us
no baby, u never hafta question my lurf
and everynite,
theres a new crowd
but its alwaes u im singing about
there is only one these words are going out to
oh girl, im all about you

I know you worry sometimes
some other girls will make me forget ure mine
theres nt a doubt in this world
that anyone cld take e place of my no.1 girl

well its true
[Chorus]
Oh girl, im all about you
when i close my eyes i can see u
its like ure right here
and this feeling's only getting stronger
ure with me everywheree

[Chorus]

swt lyrics yeahh =D will melt if anyone sings tht to me. =P lols sighhs im boreddd. helppp =X

pain.

2005-02-13T00:20:00.000-08:00

crap. its seriously painful to see the msn chatbox lookin so horribly empty.

im boredd . =\

2005-02-11T04:42:00.000-08:00

heyys, im bored so decided to blog. today is a FRIDAY uhhuhs. alot of ppl ponned sch today cuz its e chinese new year then they still wanna go bai nian and stuff i guess.bleahx. today lessons qt laggy larhs..nthg much to do..lols 1st period was assembly and we had a longggg lecture from mrs lim on how SPASTIC we are and how by clearing the cafe table we are being high class. lols. then it was gp..went to the ava and played e piano.. li lian's lik qt good w improvising and composing and stuff lor. crapp tts sthg i cant do.. hmms. then had lit tutorial. lols we did the dulce poem thgie again.. went for econs lect then lagggged for reallyyyyyy long then went for SFC..today's SFC was lik qt nicee =D we split into new cells again, then we did a testimony on how we got to know God yepps..then we paired up and shared tt w each other. i got paired up w Gloria.. lols shes lik reallie animated and stuff =P shes nice laa. yeahhhs. err basically thats all? i m having a freakking bad flu now so im feeling horrible and feverish and crap. =\ err SAJC ROCKS! =D

once a saint` alwaes a saint (=

2005-02-04T04:10:00.000-08:00

yoohoo~ mann havent been bloggin for ages ohgoshh. i think tons of thgs haf happened since i last blogged. =X been really packed these few weeks. whew. nv knew JC life's so hectic and tiring. but its qt fruitful too (= and SAJC ROCKS. lols okayys.
hmmms lemmi recall what happened over e past few weeks. okays, for last week was nthg much i guess, just that for sfc we were split into our diff cell grps and stuff, and yeahhs i went for auditioning for life concert (= life concert's this thgie held during easter week, to worship God and to hope to bring more nonChristians to Him and stuff yeahhs. mann sounds so exciting its lik i cant waitt. oOoo. lols went to audition for vocalist part last week. i initially wanted to audition for keyboard but its lik OOPS they dun haf scores and i cant play chords. ARGH. wasted yeahhs =( aww wells, had a long long chat w lewis while waiting for the audition . we were lik nervous lik hell =P lols but yeahhs i think the interview part was pretty okays larhs..but i think i kinda screwed up at auditioning a lil =\ cuz i think i wasnt really in tune omg. hahs. thank god tht wasnt singapore idol or sthg =X but aniwae, we figured out that even if we dun get the role as a vocalist, we'd probably haf as much fun helping out at backstage, pub or welfare n stuff like that yeaas (= and aniwaes its lik they're choosing 2 ppl outta 15 so i think i definitely wouldnt be one of them lols =P yeahhs kinda impossible =P
oh yeahs, and last fri i went w cell for the fever05 thgie..at ermms lemmi recall. FCBC or sthg like that lols. in other words its pris's clement's joy's and joel's church. uhhuhs. lols it was qt ok larhs, i thot the video about east timor was really sad =( its painful to see God's pple suffering like that yeahhs. but it was lik after sch and stuff, and i was so tired i was lik almost dozing off. =\ arghh. i just doze off all the time these days omg. =X
as for this week, its another hectic busy week cuz i had econs debate on wed, hist presentation on thur and gp presentation on fri =\ AND econs test on fri as well. in e end my grp didnt do the econs debate cuz carebear didnt come lols, so we ended up being the congress. ha, the thg was pretty cool. i think A31 kinda really rocked. v cute and stuff lols. hist presentation was a screwup case cuz mrs rum had to pick me out and tell me to be more meticulous in my writing cuz i apparently screwed up and made some careless mistakes while writing on e transparency. =X sheesh feel qt guilty. ermms gp presentation was today. i think i was lik qt lousy larh cuz i admit i didnt really do much. its lik most of e credit shld go to the rest of my grp, cuz tho i tried to find info for the topic and stuff, its lik i NEVER seem to find relevant information and in the end it was lik them who did the powerpoint. feel qt guilty arghhhs. sorry group =(
ohyeahs, and this week's mr wong's (the ex-bballer of sa a.k.a our relief pe teacher) last week teaching us. qt sad huhhs. i mean his pe lessons are fun (= we dun really run ALOT arnd the track lik e other classes do, and we get to play tonns of games. its lik damn fun larhs. yeahs so ytd some ppl from my class went out for dinner w him yepps. at err. ps i think. cafe la carte . yepps. i do hope that when our pe teacher comes back next week, he wouldnt kp making us run =( he took us once for pe b4 and it was boring. we nv really played much games. hurrs. ohwells...
next week's gonna be chinese new year..not exactly lookin forward to it much, but i dunno why also. yepps but aniwae, i think its time for me to gooo~ tatas (=

JESUS rocks (=

2005-01-22T05:47:00.000-08:00

heyys, just got back from church..lols church rocks. =) lurf feeling the presence of God arnd.. oooo lols..had cell today but ended up eating duck rice at e hawker ctr cuz today's cell was basically all e admin stuff yeahhs. youth service rocks. the worship is cool =P lols mannn im so happy..yeahhh JESUS rocks =D hahs.
having Xctry at macritchie next wednesday. ohno its giving me the kuku creeps =\ i know its not e first time but ARGH i v long nv run liao. cannot imagine =\ sheesh.
sighh v tired now. mann i dunno what to do. im so confused w my life. its in a mess. god please help me =( sigh.

im sorry.

2005-01-20T20:00:00.000-08:00

heyys. i dunch know if u will see this .. but i just wanna say im sorry ok? im sorry for not ..yeahhs u know..i hope u understand.. i know its really difficult for you to accept this.. but.. im really sorry for not trying and not wanting to try okay? its just that i cant bring myself to do it.. sigh.. im feeling pretty upset over this as well.. and im sad too. but whats there to complain? i know ure feeling far worse than me.. sigh.. im really sorry okay? i really hope u will understand =(

lalalas~ =D

2005-01-16T05:16:00.000-08:00

heyys..lalalas~havent been bloggin for a week =\ awws . nutts.. was too busy w too mani lil stuffs here n there yeahhs..yupps sa still rocks =D and its still continuing to rock. lols. theres this one day..i think its wednesday yepps..for the whole freakkin dae we onlie had pe. lols and some lame library talk 3 hours after tht. so its lik qt shiok lars. u jus play ball games e whole day lols. friday i had to wait from lik 1145 to 5.30 for some LAME fren's cca to end lols. qt grrrr. but yeahh! i waited!! see im so patient =P lols. was watching joel play rugby while waiting lars. lols mannn he can run damn fast =\ hahas. nutts im feeling so bored now. its lik tho im going to sch and stuff our lectures dun exceed 3 per day. and the breaks in between are lik 2 whole hours or sthg so its still qt..laggy yeahhs.
gonna eat my wonderful chicken wing now so yeahhhs.. cyass =D

seriously hilarious silarious! =)

2005-01-07T03:41:00.000-08:00

mann..back from a week at sa. and my god sa sa sa sa SA ROCKS!!! i mean the ppl there are like so nice and stuff. i lurrffff my og lik nuttttttttS... =D
the first day at sa was lik qt borringggg cuz we didnt do much and stuff...2nd day got better third day was okay as well and ytd ROCKED =D but actually its cuz OG5 rocks!!! else e whole thg wldnt haf rocked so much either =) its lik we had 3 days of og outings consecutively in a row.. lols
ytd was lik jumping up n down for one whole hour so my legs are aching lik MADness now. lols shuckss. i lurf my og. cant bear to leave them =( lols..and its lik ppl in my class A31 are so segregated =\ cuz we're all sticking to our respective ogs lik mad. lol but nvm lars.. we'll be a great class n we'll rock soon =D yayyyy...
today was the first day of proper lecture and stuff and mannn the teachers are kukus. its lik so boringggggg and if our og didnt crash it it wld haf been even more boringg. god .its lik the teacher's talkin to herself or sthg. its so freakinnggggg boringg omg. terrible. the maths teacher's lik worse than the econs teacher tho the econs teacher aint anywhere better. HELP. lessons are just boring. period.
went to town w og todayy..lols was basically slacking arnd.. ate swensons icecream too.
argh i love my og. OG5 ROCKS =D

to the special ppl in my lifee (=

2004-12-31T03:36:00.000-08:00

heyys, this is going out to all the great ppl in my life.. i just wanna say, thanks alot for rocking my life peeps =)
[ in alphabetical order ]
aaron
heyos, thanks for droning on n on about how sa's orientation's gonna be like. lols yepps thanks for repeating time n again about ur piaing e nite b4 the Os and ur miraculous A1s and stuff like that =P its been great having u as a fren yeaa. lols ure hilarious. mann lik e time u broke e erhu or sthg LOLS. okays hahas thanks for helping me out in maths n physics or sthg. and thks too, for the numerous wakeup calls during the exams =D thankss. (=

ahbutt
uhhuhs. heyys, been same class as you since psch thru sec sch huhs. lols its like *thank god we arent in the same JC `lols kidding =P newaes, ermm rmb to go to church okays? =D dun be a closet christian. its really, really, badd. =P happy new yearr~

joel
FIRST of all, i wanna thank you for all e numerous insults u've showered upon me ever since the day i know you. lols im not kidding but they kinda cheer me up sometimes. but NOT when they get too serious yeah. lols. ur insults are lik PAINFUL u know. lols but they are kinda funny as well. lols and yeah u still nv told me how to pronounce 'werewolves' the correct way tho im still sure ur pronunciation cant be tt good either =P lols and with the errr. morgoo thg. lols I DUNNO HOW TO SPELL omg. lols but whatever it is. lols okaaay its not a dog. lols. yeah i rmb. u haf a HUSKIE for heavens' sake. hahas so funnie. ohmann. yeahh newaes, gdluck in everythg kayys? and yeahh. thgs will get jus a lil better if you ermm. learn to cheer up a lil more =D happy new yearr~

jonathan chia
heyys~ thanks for persuading me to go to church n stuff yeaas? =D tts lik the bestest advice ive ever heard. newaes, thks for being dere whenever im down n stuff~ thks for caring =) and yeaas, gd luck for the Os next year =D

jonathan sim
lols yeahh heyy, rmb u as a reallie spastic n lame person lols.. thks for passing dwn all e notes n exam papers n stuff for my Os yeahh? and thks for checkin on me whenever my nicks get a lil errr..negative =) lols yeahh im fine. no worries ` cheerios (=

jonathan tham
i dont really talk to you alot yeaa. but hahas thks for being so nice bout the tennis racket . tho i didnt get it =P newaes, sch opening liao larrrrs. shucKs. no time mann =P happy new year to you too~

josephineee (=
heyyys mannn i reallieeee miss you lik nutttts. tho ure not in singapore nw =( eww u'll be backkk!!! in a few days timee..yayyy i reallie miss youuuu oh manns. =P lols it been great knowing you these 4 years..first in sec 1 on e mrt train w e 'p5' guy lols yeahh. then w e hogwarts book and all e letters condemning err the lawrences or sthg ..or rather, pple in that house =P and over rotten flower w her wonderful mr lee lih juin or sthg =D and the oversquashed snail and the ph=f and hence phuck thg. lols and the toad wavewavewave crap. and our err. dictionary of disgusting words =D lols and the..queen of cats thgie u drew outta huiwen =P lols shucKS so meann. hahas and all e nice nice nice memories.. lik scientific way of eatingg.. the bee flew into the class, hit e fan and died.. and SLEEPY MOMO PENGUIN =D lols .its lik whenever i think of u i cannot forget wakeup calls =D cuz we're both sucha failure in them hahas. and the 'its v natural you knowww' lols. and the bitchy girl sajiaoing w e phone =P and errms our frequent trips to westmall everyday after eoy or midyears in sec 1 lols. and us messing arnd in e library reference rm . AND THE WONDERFUL library auntie =P and mr lawrence chee muahhahahas. "are you free this afternoon" ha. mann awesome jokes. lols and rmb the time the library auntie got so pissed w us cuz we went back late HAHA. nutt she was lik SOO damn pissed or sthg. lols and the acs band concert we went to and some girl shouted "kenneth i love you" or sthg lols. nutt. erm shucks i think we've got too much memories lar yeaahhs =D its gd tht we'd be continuing tht in JC yayyyyy~ thks for the great bdae prezzie you got me too =) and errrrhems. nice watch u've got =P i lurrrf euuuu loadiess ~ muAckss*

junchen
heyys. youre one guy who is so HELLUVA obsessed with computer games you drive me MAD. lols really MADDDD you know. lik erm. yeahh POOF. that kinda MAD. lols. argh. fine. its been great knowing you and stuff. and yeah tho ur obsession is kinda INSANE, ure qt nice lar huhs. lols. uhhuh its HILARIOUS e way ur hair's lik one side longer than e other HAHA. sue e barber or sthg =\ lols but yeaa aniwae, thks for being so nice when someone's gotta hunt for ankle socks yeaaaaah =P and do rmb, u haf a date w the rocks. thanks for smsing in the most weird positions thinkable too. lols. yeahh . go to church soon. okaaaaaay? =D pleaseee. lols yeahh. happy new yearr to you ~ ps* santa hat =P

justin
lols heyy there, u seem to be pretty boredd these days lols. at least u went korea k. lols. its been great catching movies w you this year . lols i think we've caught qt a few plus those w weihui n stuff. lols and yeahh thks for being a great fren =D cheerios and haf a happy new yearr~

lennyyy e leonutt
heyys lols its been great knowing u tho u've been daoing twinnie n me ever since idunnowhen cuz u dun wanan go for the indoor stadium thgie =P lols we're smart k! we stopped at ur house and gave you ur xmas prezzie =P lols err. hope you like it =D *cheeky grin. lols newaes, YOU MISSED the xmas celebration thg mann it was so great . and you had to miss it. ah wells, newaes, had qt some fun w the photohunt machine e other time yeaa lols. and ur *delicate finger. lols yepps erm. ure well-known for your 'wanna fite ah's and 'hoot lah hoot lah's and 'fork lah fork lah's and ur weird obsession w gta lols. and. LIJI =P and. yeaaaah right. ouxuan jie jie ur princess. and mann URE RACIST lor. lols kuku. merry Christmas =D n happy new year. lols *thk twinnie for e prezzie. cost him a bomb =D

lianE
heyyys, been ur table mate in sec 3. sec 4 was at e beginning of e year i think. lols its been fun knowing u. ure lik so urghh. dunno how to describe. WEIRD. lols with ur errhm. funnie obsessions w tht particular soccer field just outside our classroom window >.< yayyyyyy ="D" somemoree ="\" cute ="X" name ="P" face="Verdana" color="#3366ff">
samuel
heyyos. wanna thank you for the numerous ss tuitions and history tuitions and what nots during the exam period =D thks for errm just.. being there . yeaa? thks for the wonderful bdae gift too. its great knowing u and stuff. and btw. the chicken wings sold near ur house .. they are GREAT =D lols. they just stink up ur whole room w the pineapple rice smell too. uhhuhs char kway teow feet =X shucks. lols and one more thg. ur jokes are like reallllly CRUDE. hahas. yepps. thts bout all i guess.. happy new year!! =D

twinnieeee~
heyy twinnieee. lols yayy it rocks knowing you. hahas twinnies in Christ rmb =D lols hahas errmm. where shall i start. okays. ure notorious for spamming my fone w ur smses every 3 seconds. hahas and urs is an obsession w the arcade. its lik GOD whats so great abt the arcade. argh. nvm. but newaes, err. lols its been fun cruising down to lenny's house which is lik so HOT. and nutt we gotta thank lenny for the f&n grape drink =P lols. errms thanks for ur xmas prezzieS lols. JESUS ROCKS. =D lols errmm thanks for spamming the msn chatboxes with ur lyrics of whatever song tt is playing on ur mp3 right there n then. Ha. cant believe lenny got cheated by the moxi e cat thgie haha. Christmas was fun spending it w ur cell too =P foster's lik so funni haha and erm shucks the yellow shirt guy i dunno his name =\ its lik they keep forcing the santa hat on me for dunnowhat reason lorrr. tsk. and the SPRAAAAAAAAYING of foam part was damn mad. lols damn fun. lols. tho u so kuku kena sprayed with cream by the caucasian lols. its great knowing you =D lols. ure funny and ermm..moxifying (= happieee neww yearr~ and God bless*

weihui
sweethearttt >.< nutts i alwaes enjoy the times we go munching on kebab together =D and the times we'd lik talkkkkkkkk for so long its lik hours or sthg =D and the way u luff. lols its damn funny really. its kinda contagious sometimes =P hahas. ure lamee and spastic in ur own great way and hahahs funny. rmb the time we hatched a plan to fix liane n blah blah blah together? =D lols i hope it works out fine .hahahhahahhs =P oops =X lols aniwaes, its really been 2 great years knowing u n stuff. im glad we're frenz yeaa. (= thanks for all e times u wld try to cheer me up w ur postcards whenever im feeling down.. yepps, and i rmb once when u kinda wrote sthg in the postcard wrongly. hahah its damn KUKUFIying lols. =D hahahs . ure one helluva hilarious girl manns. and yeahh sorry i cant go out w u cuz of all e stuffs going on but we MUST go out together next year okayyy? =D rock on girll... u rockkkkkkkkk =P lols muacCks and huggs* to ya. haf a happy new yearr~

yongqiang
heyyys. lols i KNOW im great at bbqing chicken wings =D lols i lurf them so i eat lik one per day. hahas =P sorry i cldnt catch ur performance on xmas eve yeaa? =X i was caught in the snow. u dunno how horrifying it is lor. ppl spraying in ur face n stuff =P lols bu aniwae, im sure u performed well yea =D happy new yearr to you too (=

and for those ppl whose names are not here.. u guys are special too =D and i just wanna say thkewww~ (=

i hope i lurf eu all my lifee*

2004-12-30T04:25:00.000-08:00

mood:: bluee =(
listening to:: if ure not e one =P

heyy, changed my blog layout today.uhhuhs..added a tagboard as well..hmms shucKs im feeling blue for no reason but arghh. dunno whats happening.
aniwaes, stayed at home for e whole day todae..spent most of my dae at the comp. feeling qt neglected actuallie, but there isnt any reason whie either. -this is awful-
hmms tmr's new year's eve, the last day of 2004. shucks i think i shall do one 2004 recount later or sthg. but i dun feel lik doing it now so uhhuhs. guess im going to esplanade tmr =) gonna get the premium membership card thgie tt allows u to borrow scores n stuff.. since i think i'd need it next year..yepps. city hall again. lols. my favourite place. (=
guess i haf nthg much to say nw.. jus feeling bluee for no particular reason. lols.

:: im all about you* ::

yawnnns.

2004-12-29T03:36:00.000-08:00

nutt. im so tiredd. woke up at like 7.45AM today cuz i was supposed to watch oceans12 and twinnie said we gotta catch the DAMN EARLY show. so yeahh wth damn early man. was dragging ppl outta bed at 8.30 and i spent 20min dragging jc outta bed its lik so horrenderific. =\ lols and okay paranoia got e better of him so he took a cab dwn to town aniwae, and i ended up being the latest =X shuckks. how unfairrr =P
newaes,watched oceans12 today and errr. it was nice lar but some parts were qt borrrringggg =\ and i didnt watch oceans11 aniwae so i was qt blur at e front part.after tht we went to eat kfc (= .TWINNIEEE BROKE HIS FAST. lols yeaaa. so meannn rite. lols =P yeahh and after tht apparently some kuku was trying to sms in very awkward positions yea and it was sooo urghhh. but aniwae, after tt we headed on to ermm arcade and the photohunt version is diff from e one at lenny's countryclub so its lik qt difficult.. after that lagged arnd at yamaha, cldnt find suitable ankle socks at carrefour so headed dwn to suntec instead.
got qt pissed cuz the carrefour at suntec's lik CLOSED. for some stocktake crapp and the notice on it says "PLEASE GO TO CARREFOUR AT PLAZA SINGAPURA" and i almost died. sheesh. but aniwae, was dumped on e 2nd floor of suntec and so i had to find the ankle socks myself =P lolss. its lik boooOOO? =\
on e way was trying to drag twinnie's cousin to go for his cg meeting n bbq and shuckss i feel qt bad cuz i succeeded in dragging him to go but i didnt go =X but i cant eat dinner outside today cuz mum's cooked mine so..urhhh yeaa. =X qt bad uhh..
err aniwae, this coming sat's gonna be the FIRST YOUTH SERVICE ever for my church =D mannn im sosososososo excited!!! arhhhhhh cant wait mann =D its like..FINALLY!!!! lols.. im qt sure its gonna be damn fun =P cheeerios`

cheerios!

2004-12-16T19:38:00.000-08:00

yay,today's like the jc posting for e pae thgie and GUESS WHAT. i got into SA arts =D oh nutts. im lik so frigging happieee. cuz its lik kinda risky to get into sa with my shit-like prelim results. but AHHHH WELL I GOT IN =D lols im frigging happy ohnooo sososososo happieee =D yayys. can join saints for Christ now omgomgomg (= and since aaron promised that the orientation's gonna rawk it better ROCK. =X lols okayys yayyy still v happy ohman..josephine got in too! justin junchen elsa all got into sa..wooohooo~
its the Nlvls results release at 2.30 laterr.uhh.hope jonathan's feeling fine..not too nervous or anythg =X he'd do fine lars..he mugged so hard..=\ gotta pray for him laterr..yeahhhs. okays so tts for now i guess..
//with God, all things are possible =)

miserablee =(

2004-12-14T05:07:00.000-08:00

shit theres sthg seriously wrong with me today =( urhhhs. feeling so down and upset and i just feel lik thrashing arnd and killing everyone i see or screaming till . e skie falls down or sthg =X bleaaaaaH. feeling so sheeshily awful..horrenderific =P sighh. shit im in a damn bad mood. shucks i feel kinda guilty i think im lik thrashing it out on ppl online =X shuckks. so they shld just leave me alone =( sighh. helpp. whts happening to me omg.
-i want a hug =( sheeesh-

uhh..1st entry?

2004-11-23T13:00:00.000-08:00

lols yo.decided to come up w this new blog cuz im boredddd lik hell.hahas. urhhs.dunno if im gonna continue using this or anythg but..for e time being..yeahhs guess so =X